hi spud
i thought i was reading my own life story then. except it all happened over 40 years ago for me. teenage pioneer servant--married at 20--wife expecting 3 years later--then the blood decision hit me--and i faced the fact i never had believed in a god--just a left over from ancient primitive man. i was only in it because i was brought up in it and did it all to please others.
so i quit.